book/magaizine organizer

So, I have been sewing the past few nights. I made book/ magazine holders for Bella and I and will be making one more for Joe tomorrow night. I will be selling them in my etsy store or just through email. They have rubber that goes in between your box spring and mattress so it won't slip I think they are super cute and Joe can no longer give me a hard time about the mess of books I leave on the floor on my side of the bed because they are all neatly in my organizer!.

no words

This is just one of those times, I don't know what to say. We are all just pretty worn out. My niece Kinsey has been in the hospital 22 days. She went in with a high fever and not being able to walk. They thought she had a bone infection and put her on very high powered antibiotics. Now they are to the point they aren't sure if it was that to begin with and they aren't sure what it is. She is doing really well besides REALLY high fevers and some low labs. They have done almost every test you can think of and still don't know. So, we are just holding our breath to see what happens/

Twilight Fail

Dude, your not that tough!!


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The Runaways

So, I am super duper excited that The Runaways movie is opening this weekend. Not sure I will have time to see it this weekend, but maybe next week. This movie looks amazing. i would love to say that I am super cool and just new about the Runaways just because ...but, i first heard them because they were on the dazed and Confused soundtrack. The song was Cherry Bomb. I would play that song over and over in my beat up Buick on my way to high school thinking I was sooo cool. I have always have a fantasy of being a rock star. (can you see me rocking out in skin tight leather jump suits just like Joan Jett? Great mental image, huh? lol) But, at this point in my life, probably not gonna happen. But, i can live vicariously through the movie. If you see me with a 70's mullet Joan jett haircut you will know I was inspired by the movie!

i found a neat website

Sometimes i feel like such a complainer. I have had all this heart junk this year. I'm just tired of health issues and I am sure everyone is tired of hearing about it. But, I have this other thing going on. I have a Chiari malformation and it frustrates the crap out of me. I have known about it since I was pregnant with Bella. I had such a crappy time being pregnant and I had some issues that ended in me having to have a CT scan. Which is no fun in general but kinda scary when you are big and pregnant. But, they found my chiari. But, they didn't know much about it and neither did the neurologist i went to see about it. I have been told so many different things about it. I have been told that it is what it is. that it doesn't progress. Well, medical research is great! lol They have discovered that it does. i started having pain in my head that i can only describe as a HUGe rush of pain that stops me in my tracks. The pain started a couple of years ago and I went to the Dr. about it and they kinda just shrugged. I have mentioned it to all the Dr.'s I have seen hoping someone would know what it is. Over the past year and recent months it has gotten worse. it is so painful it stops me in my tracks. I sometimes will have to brace myself when it happens. It only lasts a few seconds but it's horrible. I mentioned it the last time I was in the emergency room and they sent a neurosurgeon to talk to me. ( he kinda looked like Chris Isac which wasn't a bad thing lol) It was amazing because he knew what I was talking about and he confirmed it was from my chiari. He started talking to us about brain surgery and it sounds HORRIBLE. Not a little bad but HORRIBLE. So, we all decied we would wait until I just can't stand it anymore. unfortunatley, I have read that a lot of people's symptoms start occurring in their early 30's so this may be only the beginning. Like everyone else in life, i don't know what life has in store for me. This could be the only symptom I have. It's not fun but I can live with it. or I could develop more. who knows.
But, to my initial point. i found this really cool website that explains what a Chiari is and has pictures of people with them. It also has support groups, and fact sheets. I cannot tell you how cool it is to find all of this when for so long I have felt very alone in this. I have to admitt that My sister Kelli had first found the Chiari websites but when I had Bella my symptoms that time were gone and then when they started again, i just didn't want to face it. I guess you could call it denial. But, now I need to face it.
here is the link to the fact sheet in case you are interested.



http://www.conquerchiari.org/awareness/Chiari%20Awareness%20Sheet.pdf

Kansas

I was born in Tulsa, we moved to Texas, then to Georgia. In Georgia we lived in Marietta, then another house in Marietta, then to Acworth. I then, on with Joe, I moved to Atlanta, then Fairburn, on to Cartersville, back to Marietta, to Woodstock, Cumming, then finally to where we are now Dahlonega. Some of you have moved a lot more than that. But, to me that is a lot! It's funny though, if someone asks me where I am from I say Kansas. lol I honestly have never lived there. But, that is where my family is from and most of them still are. My Dad moved us to Georgia for work but I don't think they ever really intended on staying or they were just in denial. We all still talk about "moving back" I'm not sure it will ever happen but, it's a nice dream. I call Kansas home for many reasons. During all those moves, all the different places, all the concrete towns with their walmarts that look just like the town before, all the changes here, I can go back to one house on Poplar Street in Wellington Kansas and open the cabinet over the coffee pot and my little juice glass with Dopey on it sits. I can walk out the back door and there's a tree that I climbed 4 feet off the ground up in and thought I was stuck and wailed wanting someone to get me down. I can go back inside and go to the living room where a box of paper dolls that I have played with all my life still sits. I can go out to the garage and get in an old truck that my grandfather once drove and I can drive to town and get carry out pizza that we thought for years didn't deliver only to find out it does but gram thought it was silly to pay the $2 delivery fee when we could just get it ourselves. Silly us! I can take a LEFT at that pizza place and drive past the co-op that my Grandfather and now my Uncle has sold grain at, turn around and keep going and the houses start vanishing to a old building that is a small radio station where my Dad used to work, down some rural roads that various members of my family have driven countless times to an old farm that in my mind hasn't ever changed. There's a garden out back we picked vegetables in, there's a silo out front my sister climbed but i was too chicken, there's a big metal shed where you can surely find some relatives of mine working on some machinery. Go back out to the rural route I drove in on and take a left down a ways is a house my cousin now lives in, before that my grandparents lived. Back into town past the prettiest flat land you will ever see, is a church my parents got married in, Bella was dedicated, some of the best Christmases I can remember happened and 3 of my grandparents funerals were held. you can also pass an auditorium where my Dad's band once played. All the changes in my life good and bad and in between I can always count on those things. Depended on them to be there. As I get older the people and places I have depended on so much are fading. There is nothing I can do to stop it. there are people not sitting in their chairs like they always were when I walked in the door, there is land that no longer has a family name on the deed and I know within time my dopey cup will be gone, too. But, I will always call Kansas home.

A couple of random things

I read on someone else's blog that they weren't sure if anyone read it. I have felt a little silly writing a blog. Almost like, "why do I think what I have to say is so important?" But, I read other people's blogs. I think it's so fun to read other people's stories and a great way to keep up with friends. I also went back and read through my own posts and love it. It was like a little scrapbook. there were things I had forgotten about and some things I just enjoyed reading and remembering again. So, een if no one is reading it I will write it for me.